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Most of you know, I've been away from here for years... part of the reason was because my writing mojo went AWOL on me, and forcing words to come out is just not my forte. My niche for writing was just drier than a bone-eater's well in the desert sun. The other reason was just because I was sick of all the time I spent on the computer, and because real life got in the way.

Nonetheless, much to the disdain of my haters, I am very much alive and somewhat well.

My brother still lives with me. I will formally be relieved of my legal parental guardianship over him this December when he turns 18. I'm not sure how I feel about that exactly... I will be pushing 28 on my next birthday, and other than losing quite a large amount of weight in the past year or two, I'm pretty much the same.

Slowly, my writing knack has returned, but I am focused on other endeavors at the moment. Please don't get too worked up, as it may be a long while before I write exclusively again, or even update a journal here, but for now, I just wanted to let you all know that I am thankful for those of you who remember me, and for those of you who commented me and reminded me that you are still my friends, still waiting for me to return, and that you missed me. I have missed you all too, very much, and I am sorry it has taken me so long to even update here.

For now, I just want to say thank you. I am blessed, even after all this time, to have such great friends and supporters like you.

- Angel xx

Hello all,

I thought that considering the "events" of "today" and all its potential hilarity, I would write a journal.

Now I am not really knocking anyone's beliefs outright, but I have my own beliefs and this rapture stuff is not part of it. I'm not religious, like at all, and am formally against organized religion, however, I do feel a bit sorry for the people who abandoned their jobs, their homes, their kids, as well as spent all their money and not paid any of their bills this month because they felt the world was ending today. If May 22 comes around for these people, they may feel the temptation to kick the bucket simply because they have nothing else. As much as I generally really dislike mankind, I have to say, this makes me a bit of a sad panda.

Those poor, misguided people. False prophets sure are a piece of work.

I saw a comment that said "If the rapture does happen, maybe a lot of annoying people will go away, if not, then whatever. No worries on my end. Just another ordinary Saturday to me."

Can't say I disagree with this statement, but I will say three things on the subject:

1. Not everyone accepts or believes in the same things you do. Some people don't wish to be converted or saved. It doesn't make a person evil if they don't believe as you do. If you pray for people to "save" them because you think they need saving or be damned, or because you think you will be rewarded for gathering the most souls for "God", then you need to re-evaluate yourself. I'm pretty sure you don't get into Heaven for personal gain, or for the wrong reasons. People need to respect other people, okay?

2. If your heart and your faith is in the right place, then the "rapture"  and "final judging" should not frighten or worry you. I don't have a fear of such thing, not because I don't necessarily agree with or believe in it or in sin for that matter, but rather because I know that when I die, I have nothing to hide. Not to turn this into a religious debate, because I am not into having one, we'll just leave it at that.

3. All this talk about "zombie apocalypses" and "judgment day" certainly shakes things up. Life can be otherwise boring in some stages, and I have to admit that I am a bit amused by it all. Earth is indeed changing, but I, personally, would not call it "the end of the world." Even so, if such things can and do happen, I'm ready. Until then, I'll be spending the day speaking with my loved ones, watching cartoons, and dying... of laughter.

PS: If anyone in my area is having a rapture party, I'm game, but I'm not drinking the punch.




I've had one crappy week this week. First, on Monday, I wake up to find a tire on my car flat, and to my surprise, I find that I need to replace two tires with money I don't have and funds I can't spare. If it weren't for my beloved helping me through this, I don't know what I would do.

Tuesday, I lost a real piece of amethyst at Walmart somehow that my deceased mother gave me years ago. I tried my best to find it. I called the store several times over several days and I also went to the store several times. This piece of rock meant almost more to me than life and it can truly never be replaced, but I have to come to accept that it is gone forever now. I really have no mercy for humanity as of late. Of all the people in the world, one decent person could not find this amethyst and turn it in, instead of keeping it. Karma for that person sure is a bitch. I'm looking into getting a new amethyst, as well as a piece of rose quartz and a moonstone.

Yesterday, some jackass in a white serial killer type van saw me coming down the road, going into town at 55 mph (the speed limit) and did a U-turn into my lane anyway. If I had not seen him and braked when I did (or as hard as I did), I would have hit him dead on in his ass. The accident would have completely been his fault, and I would probably would have died in the crash. The turd didn't even seem phased when I shouted "You could have killed me, asshole! Pull over!" through his rolled down window as I passed him.

He didn't pull over, but I did get his license plate number, and would have given him an real accident had he had the balls to pull over. I have some serious road rage and no tolerance for roadside stupidity. If you can't drive or have courtesy for others on the road. STAY the HELL OFF the road! End of story!

As of today, nothing much planned for me. My brother is gone all weekend at a friend's house. (Seems like even the "end of the world" isn't enough to make him want to spend time with me.) I'm here alone all weekend. I was invited to a extended family reunion today, lol, but I decided to eighty-six my appearance for the sheer fact that they only call me or want to do with me when they want something from me. Besides, three people died in my family within the last six weeks. I found out about two of those deaths a couple of weeks ago! How shitty is that to do to someone?

Yeah, for my sanity, I decided to just nix it. I got better plans for my last "day" on Earth. Hope today turns out better than the rest of my week! So far, I'm off to a boring start.




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Thanks to you all for reading my work, and for all of the support that you have given to me over the years. I love you all, and I sincerely appreciate  everything you do very much.