Go On

Crouching in a corner,
I am a shadow in the darkness,
With tear stained eyes,
And a mind full of distorted visions...
Intricate crop circles corroding sanity,
Forever lost am I in patterns and puzzles
Divinely woven and held tight with silk
Lined webs of lies...

Alone, unloved, and afraid,
There's no where to run.
No place to hide,
No way to escape.
Time flees,
The voices get louder.
The final hour is here.
They've come for my soul...

But is it wise?
To take a life?
To surrender a darkened soul?
To face oblivion? To walk through
The abyss?
Is it fair to cry out only to hear no reply?
Is it too much for one second
To be used to care?

How the world is dismal and cruel...
The parallel universe extends
Its arms to me.
The beauty and mystery of the void...
Razor blade ecstasy, etching skin,
Creating flaws, creating imperfections,
They are disfiguring
Lines of death.

Crimson metallic bliss screams
A hissful roar and salty tears
Begin to burn.
The world is spinning and
Begins to dim.
Is it too late?
Can I still be saved?
Have I sealed my fate?

No, don't stay.
Don't bother with me.
You never did before.
No one ever has.
Please,
Go on with your day.
I'm still here...
I'm ok...

I'm breathing.
You're imagining that I'm not.
My heart still beats.
You just can't feel it.
My body's still warm.
It's just cold outside.
Please,
Just go on with your day.

I'm not dead,
I'm just like you.
I chose to live
Cold and heartless.
But now, I'm sleeping forever,
Resting peacefully
In the ground.
Only a faint memory remains.

I meant nothing to no one.
I never will. I was denied love.
what I tried to give was rejected.
I have left this world.
I will never bother you again.
The world is a now a better place.
You don't cry for me,
You cry for yourself.

All along, the blades of damnation
Were in your hands. blood spilled
Upon your hands...
Go on with your day
Just like everyone else....
Guilt driven and paranoid,
These reasons are justification
For your tainted soul...



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